I could compare you with. Sometimes - actually a lot of times situations present themselves in my life and for a moment I want to join in - forget You - and enjoy what I know is clearly sin. I feel as if I am missing out on all the fun people seem to be having.. and even as I try to advance my career I feel as if things could be moving to slowly.. like if I did it my way and not Your way - God - things would be a lot faster, cooler and easier - not to mention more rewarding..

But isn't Your wisdom always so rich and so rewarding? I can't explain You God - You are too marvelous for words. Too precious to compare.. To have been chosen by You is an absolute honor. To be given Your name, to belong to You to find refuge in the Lord God Almighty... I shall never be moved. I have been loved in ways I do not deserve. I have been shown mercy - I could never understand.. I have been bestowed with gifts, and power when I know that I have not been worthy.. To find anyone who could give me such honor... to have found You - my LOVE - was the greatest thing that ever happened in my life.. I will be eternally grateful.. I am so glad to be God's child.. I am so so so so glad..

Just be real with God... and set your heart to seek His face.. and when you do - you will never be sorry. and in dark hours of your life and in the bad and good and boring times - make it your goal to trust in Him and no matter what your doubts are just have faith in His word and before long your obedience (believing who He has said He is and what He has said He will do) will bring great reward. May God who has sent His Son Jesus Christ - touch your heart today.. and whomever you may be may He find you. If He found me...He will find anyone.. no matter who you are..  Abide in Him and He will abide in you.. Love Him and He will make His home in your life and in your heart.

 All praise, glory, loyalty, honor belong to the Lamb of God.. Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.. Now and forever..

I thought about prophecy, I thought about healing, I thought about tongues and today I am thinking about love.  To love the people God created - to not think of myself more highly than I ought to.. To lay down my life for my friends.  That I cannot love God whom I cannot see if I can't love those that I see. 

Well I am bent on loving God..Why?  Because He first loved me.. and He has really really loved and changed me.. and if loving others is His commandment then so be it... Guarantee it's not easy.. infact by myself without the Holy Spirit and constant praying and repenting I could never do it.. But I am going to try.. to love the unlovable in my life.. to put up with those that annoy me, that are spiteful to me... God loves them.. He died for their sin too and when it rains the rain is not just for me it's on them to.. so why do I behave as if what I have wasn't given to me by God.  I am sure if I look really hard I will find something to love in every person. 

Hey, things are simplified when the bible says this "owe nobody nothing except to love"  that's my prayer today.  Now I just need to learn how to love... Is it just lip service or is it giving people stuff?  If my wardrobe is full of clothes I don't wear and I need to get rid of them and a poor girl comes over and I give them all to her, is that love?  don't think so?  that's convenience... So what's love...I think it's patient, it's kind, it's gentle, not self-seeking... wow! 

For the next few months - I am going to think about the way I love others more seriously, and more importantly the way I love God...

Speaking of love .. I love you guys.. I don't always post on my blog everyday.. but I pray for you.. and I know that God is keeping us.. and that He is always near... Be blessed.. be holy, for He is holy, and remember God wants to forgive you more than you want to repent.. so don't be scared His hands are always outstretched and waiting for You and nothing can seperate us from the love of God... He made you, He knows you, so don't wait to be perfect, because He wants to meet you whether you are 50 years saved or never saved before.. He wants to meet you where your at, because guess what?  His love is unconditional.. accept it today.. and get forgiven.

In the beginning was the word and the word was with God.  Through the word of God all that we see and we don't see God spoke it into being.  I also remember that we have been created in God's image and luckily we have the ability not to communicate just like animals do - by dances and noises and hoots and bleats and clucks - but we have words to use.  

The ability to use words and speak different languages makes us superior to other creatures in terms of expression and even our understanding and reasoning.  To be able to speak is a gift that we should be very grateful for.  Because in Proverbs we are told that the power of life and death are on the tongue.  Do you want to see a perfect man - if there is one - guess what you should look for?  Yes.. A bridled tongue.

Words create beautiful things.  They bring healing.  They encourage.  They teach.  They open eyes and bring joy.  Words can unite.  Words can give life.  On our tongue we can confess that Jesus is Lord and worship our Father whom we love.  With our words we can honor and sing praises of His goodness.

Words can create destruction.  They start wars.  They curse.  They lie.  They blind others and ourselves.  They divorce - they kill - they wound.  They criticize.  They tell of our hate.  They enable us to pass bills and laws such as abortion.  Look at all great orators, politicians - they change destiny - the destiny of mankind with words.  

With all the political unrest in my country - and people killing each other over tribal issues and the hating going on - it takes a lot of strength to not say anything.  In fact I haven't been successful.  I keep putting myself in a place where I criticize other tribes how am I going help promote peace when I keep talking about what the other tribe is like?  

Today my prayer God - is that you set a guard over my mouth - that I may not sin against You with my words and that I may not hurt the people that You so dearly love.  Let's be careful how we speak.. if satan isn't going to catch us with the sins that we see clearly such as adultery - he is going to try the more subtler sins on us... either way they are still sin... but out of our love for God we will be obedient to His commands - and I know that if we are faithful - even from this sin - we shall be delivered.  And be steps closer to the holiness that he requires of us.  

Praise the Lord our God - Lord of Hosts - always and forever.  Amen.

PS.  The book of James - chapter 3 talks about the tongue.  So does the book of Proverbs.  Read on...  Have your daily bread people.. Much love.. Be good. 

 I wrote a post a few weeks back titled - Tell me what you think.  I was trying to understand what being saved really means.   I talked about salvation - a confession of faith in Christ as Lord, that I am a sinner and that I believe that he died and rose from the dead - and that He lives and that all who believe in Him and repent of their sin will be saved - that salvation wasn't just about miracles and healings and speaking in tongues.

Now these things are gifts from God and we should be grateful for them - like Jesus said that if we have faith - we will be able to do the works that He did and even greater than those.  But I am just trying to point out that some of us when blessed with these gifts - or those in desire of them - tend to make Christianity only about the signs and wonders which it is not -  we have to kind of live right - and the greatest way to do this is to love God which is the greatest commandment for example by having the kind of faith Meshaq, Abednego and Daniel had;  they said they would not bow down to the king's idol - whether God would deliver them or not.  Note God is more than able to deliver - but it's His prerogative. Prayer is not to conform God's will to ours but rather ours to His.

We should rest assured that God loves us and hears our prayers - and He is very capable of healing us, and delivering us from all of life's afflictions - because He is God - but I want to have the kind of faith that is steadfast whether I get what I am praying for or not.  Because He is God and He is wiser than me and even if I don't have a reason or an explanation - I want to be able to submit myself to God - to be obedient and to be patient.   Because God thoughts are higher than mine.

That's what I meant.

Otherwise, God is powerful and to be used of Him as a vessel is an honor and a priviledge and like every other thing in life that He gives us let's be faithful stewards.  Exhorting each other, encouraging each other admonishing and teaching each other as children of God.   But let's remember that God is loving and nobody will ever love you like He does and will complete and fulfill you the same God that loves us so much that He gave His own son - hates sin, because He is holy, which is why He was willing to sacrifice His own son to save us from His wrath and judgement of sin.  His wrath will be an awful and terrible thing to experience, And if we run to Him during this time - He will not refuse us - His mercy is abundant and our debt is paid for already. Perhaps the best thing is to not to take  the love of God too lightly and all who come to Him, will by no means be cast out. These words are His words - He desires that none should be lost.  Make peace with God - it's the best decision you could make for yourself.  and I promise you you will never never go wrong if you let God take care of you from now on.

Sometimes I feel like Job - in the bible - like my life is a cursed existence.. a painful, slow and very sure death.   And let's be honest we aren't going to live forever? are we? But I really take comfort in knowing that I am not alone - Job describes a man's life like a breath, nothing to savor really..  

So am I suicidal?  No...way!!! I am so happy to be here... so so happy!! cause in my lifetime everyday I get to worship the Lord.!!! my Creator the Lord of the heavens and the earth.. and the thought that I will meet Him someday and fall at His feet to say that He is God... I can hardly wait..But even while I am here in this body that really limits me that drags away from true union with my Father my soul and my Spirit scream and shout praise to God in the sound that no creature can hear with their ears.. 

I praise Him while I am here.. My flesh in its lusts dies for a moment to praise Him that gives it life.. Loved ones I don't know what trouble you may be going through.. but will you die just for a moment and engage your heart to just full, unadulterated praise to the Lord, that was that is and that will be forever.. 

Praise our God for He is magnificent and beautiful and wise.. and worthy.  and best of all because even though we are in pain but for a moment, even though we are in the depths of despair and broken heartedness but for a moment very very soon His glory will be revealed to us and all these things that we care about won't matter a lot.  

And guess what as we eagerly await to meet our First love, He is eagerly awaiting us - hoping that while you are here - you will be faithful and hang on to His promises and after you have suffered a while you will more fully appreciate Him that is so passionate about you.. You couldn't possibly ever love Him more than He loves you - so hold on just a little while longer and He will not tarry...

Be faithful more now than ever for your Salvation is near... God is passionately in love with You.. Hang on..