Paul is my only encouragement at this hour and time of my life.. It's good to know that someone else feels that they don't do enough for our God who just loves us so much..

He says it well when He says that the things I want to do I don't do and the things I don't want to do those I do... it's a little crazy....and as a believer it is kinda real proof of the fact that this walk is so real... The struggle is so real...I just think about the crucifixion of Christ and the dying on the cross and my own struggle with not listening to the flesh or the carnal and dying to myself... it's tough....

But I take comfort in knowing Hosea 2:19 - He says in faithfulness I will betroth you... This might look like a fight - a battle - but it's not me who's fighting it - i'm just conceding - like letting it happen but the real warrior is Christ..if only my own kingdoms would fall so that His would come..

Is there anyone out there who's making it?  Like in obedience?...i don't actually fall... but it's more of a scraping through,.. like barely making it... and i'm so tired of the "i'm sorry God.."  I'm not doing well enough...you know...I wonder do I ever put a smile on my Father's face? Do I ever...?

But hey, no matter what - I am steadfast... faith is up...even if half the time - I'm flat on my face...it's gonna work out...He'll carry me through...He promised.. He would didn't He?

Love you guys!! Isaiah 26:3  You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you... Amen...

May our Lord keep you, bless you and establish you all in your walk of faith....