Dear God,

I must honor you today. Especially when I think about how you have changed my life. How I had nothing and I called on You and You answered me. I remember that day as if it was yesterday.. I was so lost and so down-cast and I really had no one to love me, or to care for me. I thought the best thing for me to do was to die. Then there was a breeze, a comforting cool wind and I heard You whisper - that God is here. Later when I got home.. I sat on my bed thinking.."Isn't it about time I died.." I asked myself "Why can't I get things right?" "Why am I always messing things up?" Why is life so hard for me? Why don't I just die? And then again You whispered and said, "You need God."

It was funny cause come to think of it I wasn't thinking about You, was I? No I wasn't. I was thinking about death and how I was going to slowly die a shameful death. I didn't care if the world hated me. At least I wasn't going to be here long anyway. And then you told me - that even if I was dying if I gave you the chance you would walk with me. That with You I'd be okay and that You would use me greatly - if I chose to walk with You.

On that day Jesus you were born in my heart. After a major test which I passed - You said something to me. "Go and sin no more." I was grateful for so great - a mercy. I told You I was going to follow You. When I did I was so scared but You strengthened me, I made a resolve there and then that I would live for You, because truly You are the Lord of 2nd chances.

Since then You have been walking with me and though it has not been easy - my life now has a new meaning, You have loved me and made me very happy. You have given me peace and restored me to such a state that I can now lift my head up. You have given me a reason to smile. You have healed me. You have told me that I can make it when I thought I couldn't. You're my number one fan. You believe so much in me, sometimes I wonder what You see in me, but hey you created me - so I guess I might be all that... and more..

And still Lord even as I continue walking with You, I know that there are many areas where I fail, where I am not all I should be for you, where I am not faithful.. and I am sorry because of that. I ask You to deliver me from these things also that I may surrender to You more fully.

But as the season that is here demands tomorrow the day that I have chosen to celebrate the day You were born, I ask You that I may honor You in a way befitting. For having saved me, for loving me, for the compassion You have had on me, for the sacrifice you made for me - who is the worst of sinners, Oh God. Thank you. for not witnessing enough forgive me Jesus - sometimes I am an unworthy laborer. But perhaps even by the testimony of what You have done and are doing in my life - someone else in the simplicity and awkwardness of my testimony will know of Your faithfulness and goodness. May Your power, Your Glory be known.

God I love you. You are worthy of all adoration. We sing praise to You, creator of the universe, the author of all wisdom we give you praise. You who created the stars and the majestic beauty we behold on this earth.. You who has created the things visible and the invisible, You who is above the laws, the principles, the strongholds and the thoughts that govern the whole universe and that outside it if there is such a thing. Most Excellent God, Most High God, The God who knows what lies beneath and above, within and without, Yahweh the Holiest of Holies, the Lord of Hosts. The God that makes man fall at Your feet upon beholding Your great love and righteousness today accept our praise. Today oh God, King of all the earth, King of my heart, receive Honor and glory and praise. Accept the fruit of our lips, the praise of our heart and minds - accept our Praise. We confess that You are God. My very soul magnifies You oh Lord, I worship You. Receive our thanks giving and our praises today. For You are all.

Ecclesiastes 12:13 Fear God and keep His commandments for this is man's all.

Psalms 118:17 I shall not die but live, and declare the works of the Lord

May Your name be praised yesterday, now and forever.

AMEN.